THIS IS WHAT I WANT (AKA HAVING IT ALL)

✕ knowing my meaningful purpose in life
✕ working towards that purpose instead of ignoring it
✕ positive spiritual beliefs that are uplifting to myself and others
✕ opportunities to help others and make the world better
✕ a thriving career and solid professional reputation
✕ enough money to take care of basic needs and savings
✕ a partner who is stable and loves me unconditionally
✕ plenty of great sex and loving intimacy
✕ a happy, beautiful and peaceful home
✕ kids who are loving, kind and grateful
✕ a large circle of diverse friends that appreciate me for who I am
✕ neighbors that like talking to me and happy to do favors
✕ gratitude from those that I directly take care of on daily basis
✕ freedom to travel to exotic locations
✕ delicious food and lots of good music and dancing
✕ stimulating intellectual conversations and debates
✕ a dog that doesn’t roll around in shit
✕ a little bit of spare time to indulge my hobbies
✕ occasional quiet time to enjoy a good book or two

and I guess…

✕ sympathy from my best friends when I don’t in fact have it all

I actually have almost all of these things, most of the time. But sometimes the most important ones seem very out of reach. And there’s nothing I can do about it except thank the universe for blessing me with the others. Still hurts…